This post is not what i thought it'd be...

     Its totally been awhile, but things got busy. Not in a I-have-so-much-work-to-do-I-have-no-time-to-chillax kind of busy. More of a I-have-planned-so-many-blog-worthy-things-to-do-that-I-don't-actually-have-time-to-blog kind of busy. Ok, well, most of it was that. But the past days have just been sadness over Esther passing. It really does suck that someone with so much life in them didn't get enough time to live it all, but it is a comfort to know that she lived her life to the fullest. The 16 short years she got weren't in vain, they were lived more fully them some people get whether its 30 years or 60. When I was younger and the man who would have ended up as my uncle passed my mom told me that sometimes people need to die because God has a need for them up in heaven. And I don't know if thats true or not, its hard to imagine that any human can do something that God himself cannot do, but I do believe that heaven is a greater place for having Esther in it, and I would like to think that God did have a need for her and thats why we don't have her anymore. I didn't know her as well as I wanted to, and certainly not as well as her closest friends had the privilege to but the little I did know was proof enough that this girl was a miracle in and of herself, and she will not be forgotten soon, if ever.

      I honestly didn't think I was gonna blog that much about Esther. I thought I was gonna mention being sad and then move on... it's hard for me to put out so much real emotion were other people can see it. Because 1) I tend to not share my stronger emotions more often then not (truthfully its probably why I will never be a published author) and 2) its even harder for me to put it in a place thats meant for public view because then I feel that it becomes less about what your feeling and more about how will the people reading it construe it, and then I just fall apart thinking how does this sound, maybe I should use this word, do I sound fake? will people mock? etc etc etc...

     I really am all talk. For all my posturing about how I don't care what other people think of me, that the only thing that matters is my own opinion, and that the mean and petty comments i may hear about myself are actually quite amusing to me cause I know who I am and thats all that matters... Its all lies. I do want to be liked. I'm still that stupid 14 year old who's so scared of rejection that I'll hide who I am because I don't think people like who she is. It's not as bad as it was back then, but its still there lurking under the girl I am now. There are times when I really don't care if people think I'm stupid or annoying or a bitch (truthfully that last one bothers me the least- being bitchy is a choice, one i make a few times, but stupid or annoying are the kind of things that I feel are harder to stop being- my intelligence is what it is and if my personality is annoying I also can't help it- its who I am, who I've been these past 24 yrs...)

     But then there are moments that I won't say something, or I'll let something pass because I don't want to bring attention to myself or give people the opportunity to think I am stupid...

     I still have the same low self esteem I've had since I was a kid. I know this and I want to change it, but I don't know how. How do you stop from thinking a certain way?

At the bar..

So this post will be short cause I'm enjoying my Blue Moon. Saw Scott Pilgrim for the 3rd time today and it was still epic. I'm going dancing tomorrow w the girls (and possibly with my ex which is gonna be sooooooo awkward, ugh.) and Finally I can go to Disneyland on Sunday!!

DFTBA

Watchin Doctor Who

     So a short post tonight as I am in the middle of a very creepy episode of Doctor Who and I'm in the middle of dinner too.

     Ok, seriously, is that Satan in a planet next to a black hole in space? So Hell isn't below us after all but father away then we ever imagined? And I'm sorry but we better get the Tardis back soon, I miss it already!

     Anyways, what to blog about...
    
     Wait what? IDA YOU IDIOT! That thing, that Beast claims to be Satan and you want to get a closer look? Dude RUN LIKE HELL!!!

     Sorry, where was I? Oh yeah, blog...

     Ooh, I have an hour left to post this so I don't miss a day. Its kind of exciting being able to blog for consecutive days... Although I still find myself wishing this blog was more then my public diary...

     Ok I'm heading out cause Doctor Who is too good!!!

     DFTBA

     (And I've cried like 3 times already!)

Beach Day!

     I'm sorry, but when you go to a bookstore and the first words out of your mouth are "I don't know the title of the book or the author's name..." please just go home, go online and do some freakin' research! A bookstore is a place of business, not your own little living yellow pages.

     I also had one guy get mad when the book he was looking for wasn't in hardcover format but paperback. His words were: "You sent me to the section, but they didn't have the book, all they had was the paperback!" Apparently paperbacks aren't really books... then he goes on this rant how why would he want to spend his $ on a POS thats just gonna fall apart anyways, and why do they even make paperbacks?
    
     I really wanted to snap back that, one, he didn't tell me he wanted a hardcover so how the eff am I supposed to know he wouldn't want that version. Two, some people prefer paperbacks and some are trying to spend within their budget and $30 is a lot for one book. And three, please stick to shopping online cause you're annoying. Sigh, people sometimes...

     Thankfully no one else gave me any grief during my 4 hour shift. I guess its good that I got my one douchey customer out of the way in the first half hour of my shift...

     Before work I went to the beach! It was awesome, and the first time this summer (that never was) that i actually went into the water, which was FREEZING!!! Seriously, it was like water in early may since the weather hasn't been all that hot the ocean hasn't heated up any. It took awhile but Cassandra and I finally got in all the way (Crystal was way ahead of us...) and it was fun! I mean it was still freezing, and my toes got numb a bit (and then they started to hurt a bit) but it was nice to in the big old blue again! We even saw some dolphins swim lazily across the beach, one even jumped out of the water a bit! I swear it never gets old seeing marine life especially the cute ones like dolphins and and sea lions! But even the scary ones like sharks, jellies, and rays are cool (from an aqaurium, of course).

     Hopefully, this won't be the only beach trip of the year, but knowing how cold the water is, I know I'll have to practically force myself  into the waves!

     Tomorrow I work both jobs, thankfully they're spaced apart far enough that I won't be rushing from one job to the next. Not so thankfully, my job at Barnes and Noble starts at 6am... how do I get myself in these situations?! oh, right, I have no spine... plus I could totally use the extra $ on my paycheck...

     DFTBA!

Another Day Off

     Ok so bare with me cause I'm blogging while I watch Doctor Who which may not be my smartest idea... 

     I didn't have work today, which was nice and also...

     Ooh, the Doctor made a reference to the Muppet Movie! SQUEE!!

     Ok, anyways, since i had the day off and my room was somewhat clean (definitely cleaner then normal) i basically got to wake up late, watch some tv (Raiders of the Lost Ark), then I went to the movie theaters to rewatch Scott Pilgrim and it was still just as awesome as it was opening day! I also had to stop by Barnes and Noble to return the Nook i had borrowed. You know,sad battery aside, I'm gonna miss that nifty device... oh well...

     Sweet, a werewolf story on Doctor Who!

     Anyways, tomorrow I have work But I plan on hitting the beach before hand, cause finally, finally, finally, Finally, we had summer weather! 

     It was in the high 70's today and its supposed to be in the 80's tomorrow! I guess it was too early to call it The Summer That Never Was, hope the trend continues!

     DFTBA

Day off

     So after church the 'rents and I went to ross and I ended up buy two new pair of shoes. Not cause I need them or cause they're for work but just cause they were cute. One pair are grey ankle boots with 3 buttons on the side, its got this really nice victorian touch to it that just tickles me, and these black peek-a-boo heels that are like 3 inches tall, which for me is tall. Thankfully, its also on a platform so its easier to walk on, but seriously i cannot wait to take them out for a spin, hopefully my friend Cassandra will have Friday so we can go dancing!

     Ugh, I really want some chips. Something really salt and lemony, an maybe even spicy... sadly Dad is cooking right now so I can't sneak out and buy some. That's probably for the best though, I really should be at least trying to eat even slightly healthy... but its sooo easy to just buy a bag of chips or heat up some noodles instead of taking time to, like, make a sandwich... (Man! I am lazy!)

     Although I do have this very easy recipe for Avocado Cucumber soup, two things i really, really love (and they both go well with lemons!). Which is great for summer weather since its not a soup you heat up. Although... its not like this summer has been so unbearable that I'm dying for something cold, we have yet to move past the spring weather of high 60's and low 70's except for one week early in the season. Seriously from this point on Summer '10 will be known as The Summer that Never Was. I've only been to the beach once and I didn't get into the water, its been to windy and the water is too cold for me, without the intense heat its not pleasurable... stupid climate change, it almost makes me wish for global warming to come back...

Something I Love

     Ok, so since I have wifi and Im actually able to blog from Charlie (my laptop) instead of Albus (iphone),  I figured in celebration I would post another blog tonight. 

     So something I love is Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip. 

     A TV show on NBC that aired on Mondays right after Heroes. Sadly it only lasted one season but I enjoyed every moment of it. It was smart and it was funny and it had such a way of going back and forth between drama and comedy that just worked. And what comedy! even now, hundreds of rewatches later some of those lines still make me LOL, and they had such sweet romantic moments too. I love Matt and Harriet and Danny and Jordan was unexpected but so perfect! 

     My favorite Episodes Have to be Nevada Day Part I, Nevada Day Part II, and The Christmas Show. The first two is just a crazy ride and the Christmas Show also had some great lines as well as a lot of emotion. 

     If you've never seen this tv show I highly recommend you give it a shot. I'm watching it right now and I couldn't be happier <3

BEDA #... uh... I lost track.

I saw Scoot Pilgrim vs The World last night. Sooo much fun! All I can think about is when can I go and see it again! The soundtrack sounds a lot cooler after you can see bow the music is used. I loved Envy! If she were a real singer in our world I would totally be a fan!

Right now the whole family is at my home to. Elevrate my cousin's birthday. It's fun having everyone here. Watching movies, telling stories, catching up, and eaten good food. Sometimes it's nice having such a large family.

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Yeah... No clue what else to say, which is ridiculous! In high school I was always writing away... Now, I can barely string 2 sentences together that don't bore me to death... le sigh hopefully the more I blog the better I'll get at this. Just don't expect too much...

i hate trying to think up witty titles...

Ok so clearly BEDA totally didn't work for me... sigh I think the big problem is that I keep treating this blog like a diary, and sadly my life is, well, it's Boring I'm always so impressed with all the blogs I follow cause they're ability to come up with creative and intelligent blogs, so when I put mine out, it alway feels so... meh.

I could probably do better if I had a set of topics to choose from, the way the 5AG do for their vids... but having to come up on my own with something creative and interesting? yeah, not so much.

Anyways, today I did something I have been dying to do since I got my driver's license- head over to Palos Verdes and drive over Portuguese Bend! Ok, so those who don't live down here are probably going, um... what? ok, please forgive this very basic and not at all complete explantion, but: Palos Verdes is a city on a hill overlooking the ocean- the hill was caused due to uplifting, so a lot of it is made mostly of sediments that used to reside under the ocean so the ground isn't that stable, so PV gets a lot land slides and such- Portuguese Bend is an area that the movement happens a lot so much so that the pipes in this area can't be contained underground cause the movement would cause them to burst. Anyways, they keep having to pave the road over and over cause all the movement but it is soooo fun to drive it cause the bumps are like rollar coaster bumps and the turns are a little crazy too! Sadly (for me, not for the people living in PV), Portuguese Bend only lasts like .08 of a mile, but its a hoot!

Driving PV is always nice cause its got a great view of the Pacific, and on a clear day like today you could see all the way to Catalina Island. And the Water! It was so blue! Like something out of the Caribbean, not our polluted filled waters...

Sadly, the view only reminded me of how I haven't been to the beach once this Summer. I mean I went once to the beach but it was only to tan. I have yet to actually get in the ocean, which is so unlike my friends and I. But the weather hasn't been agreeing either, at least not for me, I love getting into the water when its high 70's and 80's but the Summer has yet to deliver these conditons, its mostly high 60's and low 70's. So while it looks like perfect LA weather, it sure doesn't feel that way. I sure hope I get at least one day in the water this summer...

Well, hopefully I'll blog tomorrow.
Till then,
DFTBA

You know what sucks? Having the bugs of Summer without proper Summer weather...

I cannot believe I forgot to Blog again!! Sooo unfair.


Anyways, I have an ortho appointment today. I've been rocking the purple and yellow (laker colors) since my last appointment but I think it's time to change... I had Slytherin colors before but I want to try something new... Maybe red and white? Or black and blue? Purple and green for something really crazy? Sigh I'll figure it out.


I've been watching the same two Scott Pilgrim vs The World trailers over and over again and I so cannot wait for the movie so I can finally watch it! And I hate that unlike everyother movie out there they didn't release the soundtrack like months in advance. The music is gonna be very important in this movie since scotts in a band...


Well it's running late- gotta get ready. Catch you all later!


Dftba

Aaaand I Fail

I completely meant to blog for day two, too. But I was gonna finish cleaning and get through the first disc of Doctor Who Series two first. And then I did finish those and decided that sleeping would be great... somewhere between all that I completely forgot about BEDA :(


Well anyways c'est la vie! I'll try to not forget anymore! And I'm not gonna let one little misstep destroy the whole thing for me either, so...


Except I have NO clue what to blog about. I went to work, heard some intense gossip, so intense I won't even speak of it after this, went to the park to eat my food, went to costco, got two DVDs, and went home.


Ok well, the park! My friend Robin gave me the idea cause during her lunch she'll head out to the park closest to her to eat and read. And I got my food from work, but I didn't want to eat it in the kitchen or take it home cause I do that all the time, so I figured I'd take a page from Robin's book and just go to the park. Thankfully I have a blanket in the trunk of my car so I was able to enjoy it without breaking out into a rash... I'm reading Live and Let Die (2nd James Bond novel) so I was out in the warm sunshine with a delicious Burger Melt and a good book watching all the kids around, the lady with her little chihuahua mix, the boys tossing a football around, all the birds flitting to and fro. It was nice. I'm gonna have to do that again soon.


I definitely need to do things like that more. Stuff like go on more hikes, watch the sun set, hang out at the beach. I always say the best thing about CA is the genuine mix of city and nature... time to take advantage of that.


So, question: what type of natury things do you guys enjoy?

see ya tomorrow
DFTBA

BEDA

And damn it I will succeed!!! 31 posts in 31 days and I'm not gonna let mundane life get in the way of blogging either. If I can't talk about my day cause its so boring (a common occurrence) then i will find something to blog about! Even something like a picture, or a link, or a song, even.

Speaking of mundane days, today was pretty mundane. My Sundays are all the same now- Work, Mass, True Blood. I'm not complaining mind you. Its great to work but not have to actually work in the front of the restaurant- no guests to greet and quote times to meet, no large parties to set up, no one to yell at me. I just get in, count money, organize papers, and get out! Plus I get a free meal out of it- Chili fries today and the manager treated me to Starbucks! <3

Its weird though, since I do have a position where I have more responsibility and because I am constantly in the manager's office I hear so much crap now- not even about the servers and hosts and stuff, but like about other managers- one manager can't stand another, another gets annoyed when so and so does this, and the number of eff-bombs that were dropped today? yowza. Of course when I first got the bookkeeping position I was told that I would be hearing a lot of stuff that should never be repeated. Today kinda proved it. :)


But, you know, I don't mind not getting to tell any one cause I'm just excited I get to hear it in the first place. I'm not a huge gossiper, in that, I don't repeat what I hear, but I LOVE to hear other people's secrets even if I don't do anything with the information except forget after a few days... I just like knowing things.


Song Stuck in my head


BEDA- Day 1 Complete!

Back Home, Bedroom Woes, LATFoB

Hey all!
So My Spring Break is over and done with, and its back to school. Spring Break was spent in the Anza-Borrego Desert State Park with my Geology class, in what was basically an extended Lab. Some of the notes were interesting and some were deathly boring, but the Hikes were awesome! There was one hike where we traveled to a palm grove that was being fed from a spring. The best part there was an area of water that was about 3 ft deep, so what started as going in to just wet my legs turned into me jumping in fully clothed! And the water obviously felt great, and it was something so spontaneous and comepletely unlike me, but well worth it!
There were also a couple of F-16s flying by which, added with seeing the bad land topography that was used for the Soarin' Over California ride at Disney's California Adventure and at Epcot in Florida, made me wish I had the ride's soundtrack playing on a loop! I love camping in the desert, and although AB has Nothing on Death Valley, its still a great place to visit!
So before I left for my camping trip/really long lab class I had to completely empty out my bedroom because Dad was getting me new flooring, a new bed and a new dresser. He was gonna use the week i was gone to finish that up, the idea being that when I get back I would have my room all set up... except it totes wasn't. Just the new floor, but no bed and no dresser. My books and my desk, and basically everything else thats mine is either in the back yard or in the living room... My dad put in a mattress in the room so that i can sleep but other then that i don't really have a room now... which really sucks. I get home, and instead of heading to my room to go online or watch a movie or change or anything, I'm kind of stuck in the living room doing nothing... sigh.
Having a space to be completely alone is important to me, and i don't have it- I'm like a dog who's had their food bowl moved.
Some better news is that this weekend is the LA Times Festival of Books! I love going there every year! On Saturday I spend the whole day there alone checking out authors and stalls I want to see and not worrying about other people wanting to do other things... And on Sunday I go again after Mass, with my younger cousin Elizabeth who loves reading as much as I do! She looks forward to that as much as I do!
I still don't know which authors will be there, so i need to check cause if its someone I live I like taking my books there so I can get Author signatures! I also love finding new books that I never heard of before. LATFoB is responsible for introducing me to Terry Brooks and Steven Brust, I got to meet Kevin Smith and Wil Wheaton and its just a nice weekend with nothing but books, how can that turn out sucky?

DFTBA

Take Out F.I.N.A.L.S. (or Frak I Never Actually Learned This Stuff)

To work as Takeout at BJ's I have to pass three tests. The haredest one (that I thought I'd majorly screw up on) was the food final. This 99 question test had obvious questions like how many wings come on the appetizer plate, or at what temp (for lack of a better word) do we cook our burgers. Things like that are basic, then there's questions like: Here's a list of ingrediants, which salad is this describing? And our salads have things like red onions, or green onions, sometimes different sauces/dressings or a blend of one, or the meat is cooked in a specific way. And these are a bit tougher cause there are obvious food items like meat or a specific dressing but not all of the ingrediants are obviously one type of salad or another... ask me to list which salads have red onions and which don't and i draw a blank... Thankfully it was a multiple choice test and I passed with 92% (I needed 90% to pass) So I have one more day of training in Take Out and then I'm officially cross trained So I can get scheduled as a Host or as Take Out, and I'm hopefully one step closer to becoming a server.

Of Course, its almost expected that I'll become trained as take out right before I leave for Anza-Borrego State Park for my Geology lab class... I'm gonna be gone for 4 days and when I come back I'll have forgotten everything and my managers will decide that I'm not a good fit for take out and maybe it was too soon to sort of promote me... OK so maybe not, but still it'll be 4 days that I don't get more practice.

In any case I am extremely excited about camping! I love camping in the desert. The weather has been mostly 80's but the rain here has made the temps there lower to 70's which is still nice, but it also means the the nights still dip into the 50's which sucks. I still think it sucks that I get the option of drinking every night taken away from me and replaced with copius amounts of notes (My Geo Prof is a HUGE structual fan.)

So recently My friend told me about a web comic that has fun with Epic Fantasy Aventures like LOTR made popular. It's called Looking For Group. And it is AMAZING!!! Cale may be the protagonist of the story but Richard is Barney Stinson to Cale's Ted- he ALWAYS steals the show. For such an evil guy he rocks! (Or is it that he rocks because he's so evil?)


Here watch this video Where Richard sings a song in the tune of "Part of your World" except its called: "Slaughter your World"



And if you liked that then start at the beginning of the comic HERE

Enjoy

BMFA (or I try to...)

So apparently it's Blog Every Day in April time, but that's not gonna happen. But then, one of my fave internet celebs posted about BMFA or Blog More Frequently in April and I figured that was safe enough to attempt.

So I finally got a step up at work- I'm starting to train in Takeout, which is a step closer to being a server then I previously was. Its hard though- I have a final on our food on Monday and have memorized very little. Brute memorization is tough for me- I do better with repetition... hopefully i can get it though. In any case, the amount of support the servers and the other take-out people have shown me is very gratifying.

In 9 days my spring break will begin. But instead of waking up late and going out drinking everynight (ok well i wouldn't have gone every night, but the option was there) I'm going with my geology class camping to Anza-Borrego State Park. Now, don't get me wrong, I love camping, I love geology and I love my geology class, but I'm going to spend the one week school gives me for time off working. And again, alcohol is strictly forbidden cause its a school sanctioned trip. Plus I'm gonna miss Glee's big return to TV... I wanna know how Emma and Shue are going to act in school and if Quinn and puck are dating now... and what amazing songs they will sing!

So awesome news: I was looking for something to watch on Netflix and came across Season one of Xena: Warrior Princess on instant watch! I grew up watching this show. Xena was the first show that taught me that TV Shows have a specific schedule week to week. Before Xena it was turn on the TV and hope for something interesting, but when Xena came on it was Saturday Night 8pm every week. The show is amazing at being dramatic and serious even when some moments are so incredibly campy and comedic.

Well, back to my marathon watch!

Dumbledore and Love

*I've been thinking about this for awhile, and I guess I want to put it out there. But, before I begin, I just want to say that while it's been on my mind for awhile I have not done more research besides what I remember. I think I have the facts straight, but let me know if there's something I'm missing or something thats been mis-stated.

So according to Albus Dumbledore, Love is the greatest thing of all. Harry's love saves him time and time again. Voldemort can't touch him at first because of it, after Dobby's death Harry can go past Voldemort's rage, Lily's love saved her son, and the whole of the wizarding world etc etc. In the books the examples are endless.
I don't disagree with this, but I was thinking about how its Albus who reveals this to us. And its Albus who we always look to when we think about how wonderful Love is. Its Albus who speaks about how powerful love is. But, how much does Albus really know of Love? I think that a part of Albus' fascination with the power of love has to do with the fact that he never really had it in his life. Not in the way that Harry has it, that the Weasleys have it, that Lupin and Tonks, or James and Lily had it.
He loved his family and they loved each other, but I think when Ariana was hurt their family was broken, and no one quite knew how to fix it. Albus' dad, in his grief, went on the offensive, his mother seems to have tried so hard to push it away that it seemed to never happen, and Albus turned to books and knowledge, instead of moving closer together this family moved further and further apart, leading all the way to Ariana's death and the almost completely severed ties of Albus and Aberforth.
After that, the only example of Love we recieve in Albus' life is Grindelwald. And I don't know if that was love or infatuation. If I remember correctly Grindelwald was supposed to exceptionally charismatic and we know he was powerful, and I think Albus may have been sucked in by that. I think Grindelwald's plan to take over the world appealed to the part in Albus that was still angry over what happened to his sister. I mean, i don't think the family ever had closure, so the wound was probably festering by then.
After that, after Albus and Grindelwald severed ties with each other I think Albus may have been shocked by what his feelings for Grindelwald had him considering. I think Albus is generally a good man, he's not Grindelwald, he's not Voldemort. He was just a young man still in pain. It took the death of his sister (who may have been the last honest example of love in Albus' life) to make him realize what he was doing. I think he's right: Love is powerful. But I think Albus has put the emotion on a pedastal too. I think he wanted something he had seen other people have, but something he didn't have. I think, he may have been scared too. Love can give the other person power over you, Grindelwald certainly may have used Albus' emotions against him. And Albus almost made a huge mistake. I don't think Albus ever let himself get close to another person again becuase he was scared of what he could be compelled to do.
I think Albus may have been a rather sad person sometimes. I think he wanted love but didn't want to get hurt again, and I think the idea may have scared him a little.

And the Award goes to...

So the Employee Appreciation meeting came and went. Sadly I did not get the Host of the Year award which, you know, totally bites. But what can you do? At the very least I did get a few servers who came up to me and told me that they believe I should have gotten that honor, which in a way is more satisfying then the award because the managers don't see everything but the servers know which hosts they like having around to seat their tables, so the people who's shift is dependant on how well I work think I do a bang up job.
I did manage to win a raffle and walked out of the meeting with $10 for itunes and $25 for target. I was hoping for the $100 American Express card or a bottle of Petron... but I did get a new CD off itunes so yay! Plus we spent the morning gambling and I turned a 100 chip into 700! I LOVE BLACKJACK!

So work: the girl who got Host of the Year chose that same day to inform everyone that even though she was scheduled to work the long shift (and the one with the most responcibilty IMO) on Valentine's Day she was not going to show. So everyone who was scheduled that day had to work a double shift... yeah, right now she's not the most popular girl at the host desk...

Anyways work is work, but they give me good hours so I'm one of the few who works 5 days a week... I mean it sucks that I no longer have a weekend cause I work Friday nights, Saturday nights, and Sunday nights, but I still have thursday nights and i have a bit of extra cash too!

School started last week. I'm enrolled in Health class and Geology class. I sadly did not get into my speech class, oh well. And I decided spur of the moment to try to get into a Shakespeare class but its looking a bit dire right now... I'll find out tomorrow I imagine...

I'm really excited about my Geology class because it includes a 4 day camping trip to Anza-Borrego (desert!) and let me tell you, i have been jonesing to get out of the city for a bit. It sucks being able to see the mountains so clearly and not be able to be in the mountains... :(

So not much going on in my life, I passed the written portion of the drivers test So i have a permit! I'm hoping to take the Driver's Test in March! Mostly just so I can get to Disneyland soon! I REALLY want to go!!!! its been 3 weeks!!! haha, i'm so obsessed!

DFTBA

Back to life?

Yeah... So its been awhile...

Part of the reason is that my poor Charlie (thats my macbook) died suddenly one day, and I didn't get him up and running for 3 months. Part of the reason for that is at first I was broke, then my sis was gonna buy it as a xmas gift, then i was out of the country, then i sister needed to actually, you know, order it, then i had to connect it myself. That last one was a bit scary, cause even though Macs, as it turns out, are rediculously easy to DIY, I was still scared that i would somehow screw up so completely that my mac would never survive... But I did it! Charlie is back and I am so happy about that! even if it is back to Tiger since thats what was current when I bought it, and I can't get it to Snow Leopard cause the disk was my friends and she can't find it, and I no longer have Microsoft Word cause another friend had that one, and she can't find her disc either... I'm gonna save up money for Snow Leopard at least cause a lot of my old applications like Evernote (which is awesome) need Leopard or Snow Leopard to operate...

Besides my computer woes, there is the fact that my life is ridiculously basic right now, all I really ever do is go to work... I have gone out with the girls quite a bit recently though, but in general there's not much going on in my life.

Speaking of the girls, I'm going out with Robin, Jen, and (maybe) Twin tonight to the AMC Theater at Downtown Disney cause for Vday they are having special screenings of Casablanca from now till the 14th! I love that movie, and its gonna be sweet to watch it in the big screen!

What else is going on? Well school starts next week on Tuesday. The only class i'm really looking forward to is my Geology class with one of my fave profs. A class that includes a camping trip to the Anza Borrego Desert. Its not quite Death Valley (which is awesome) but its still the desert, and i adore desert camping.

This Saturday morning is our restaurants Employee Appreciation Meeting. We get a nice breakfast spread, and a chance to gamble for raffle tickets that go to many many prizes! This year everything is shrouded in mystery, unlike last year where we already knew some of the prizes... We also have the Yearly awards for the best host, server, busboy (Service Assistant of SA), bartender, and takeout. And this is not vanity but at the very least I'm a top contender, even if i don't get it. I bust my metaphoricall balls at that job- going above and beyond as often as i am able too. At the very least I can safely say that I always do my job to the very best of my ability (whatever that may be) while some of the other hosts just breeze on by...
But really its not so much about the award ceremony (though i'd love to win) as it is about the raffle prizes (last year one of the prizes was an XBox 360- i'm hoping this year there's a Wii for me to win...), the blackjack table, and the awesome breakfast spread (the omelets from last year were SO GOOD!). Its also pretty great that i'm not the host who has to work right after the meeting, i don't come in till 5pm so i get the day after to do stuff.

Stuff which thankfully do not include cleaning my room, cause (drumroll please) for the first time in like 1/2 a year my entire room is clean! dusted, vacummed, and reorganized!

OK, well not comepletely reorganized cause now that my roon is clean i want to do some early spring cleaning with tossing things out that i don't use anuymore and once again my bookcase has turned into part filinf cabinet.

But Still! i can see the wood surface of my desk!!! Thats a big thing for me!!

Ok dinner time for me. Hope this post hasn't bored you. I'll see you soon!

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